glamourous demeanour

Saturday, October 22 06:08

things are going way down for me. i cun seem to be focusing on anything now. since exams are over i thought my stress would be released. what a joke. i'm thinking more than ever now due to the many extra free time i have in school. things hasn't been going too well. its tiring to see, or even mention it. complications made it worse. now i'm stuck in the middle dangling nowhere. its messy. plain messy. i dunno how to put it across to them. i dunno how to express how i really feel in words. it feels like crap. i feel crap. i am crap. things are not going to get better if i dun do anything about it. i know i have to do smth about it but what? i dunno how to say. i dunno what to say. i have so many doubts about this. is starting this like right at all? i know its wrong cause i know its wrong. its a simple fact no one can deny. its the way of life. its my way of life. its how i live my life. why must i listen to you and accept things for the way it is? i want to live my own life. but you just wun give way.